And baby,you're all that I want..

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Well.. It's really very hard.. I knew it would be. It was so sudden, so unexpected & now, I can't do anything to stop it. She was my everything, When i was bored,she was there. When i was down, she would comfort me and make me smile. When I needed something, she helped me through. Even when i didnt ask she did so much. Even when i don't deserve it, she showered me with her love and her affection. All the things she did for me, I'll never get it again. She really was my cry my one desire, my everything, my necessity. I knew in my heart, my love will never fade but now i have to force it to leave. Now I have to rely on myself... Mission impossible.. All the things we did, All the memories, All the things we talked about, Vanished just like that.
Why is this world so unfair to me. Why can't you stay.. But i know, i must understand.. you have your difficulities too.. But its just SO SO SO freaking hard...
It just felt so right, like our fate written down for us to stay together but was it not meant to be? Are we to part just like this? You gave me so much, yet you think you gave me nothing but pain. Who else could ever show me this love but you? Dont you understand, that what i truely need is you! Nothing more, nothing less.. Just you! I don't want anyone else, I don't need anyone else.. All I hope for was for us to settle our problems together as they come, but how naive i was?

Haiss... What can i say? I know you have your limitations, i know you have your fears .. I had my counter arguements, they were relevent and valid, yet you still rejected them.. I don't know what else i can do? I think about ways to salvage us, how to solve your problems & take all your pain away.. but still..
I feel utterly useless now.. I cant do anything.. all i can do is wait, watch & pray. That one days you'll come back.. I know you think i'm wasting my time but I dont mind, I just need you back ..
I read through all your past post, your messages & all the memories and tears just all keep flowing! ): i'm sorry.. You told me to let you go, but it seems so impossible...
If you really are to go.. Let me just say.. There'll never be another that will move my heart the way you did. There'll never be another who can ever replace you. Your legacy will always be engraved deep deep down in my soul..

It's going to be so hard, so difficult.. At least i left you with some things too (:
Like i thought you how to roller blade! did so many things with you, went to so many places too! oh ya..you told me i was your "1st" for alot of things! (: Thanks for letting me do it all for you! (:

You're one great girl.. your next love will be soo soo lucky to have you by his side.. Just like i was.. Baby.. My love still burns for you.. It will till you return..
I love you py...

Baby your all that I need..

7:15:00 PM

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Got this really cool app! (:

so i just tried it out ..

Quite fun!

Baby your all that I need..

12:11:00 PM

I guess.. on the 25th of June 2009, my life just ended.
Maybe i'll start a new one soon? Maybe i'll start one in a year or maybe Never..
I don't know, & i don't really care.. Cause i really want to go back to my old life. I really do, but i cant be selfish..
Every girl deserves a fairytale ending, every girl deserves to have a fairytale wedding and life with kids.. Especially you! you deserve more..you deserve a lifetime or 2 lifetimes of happiness! Due to soo many things, I know very well that, I can only promise you happiness Now, but it's so unlikely I can stay in the future. You deserve more, way way more than me. So i cant be selfish, i cant ask you to stay for me. So, i'll accept but just give me your reason aite! (:
You're one special girl, it really has been a great time. It was a priviledge and an honour. I wish i could do it all over again. Maybe i could take away all your fears and maybe i could be a better man for you and maybe i could just change your mind..
But whatever it is..THANKS..These 8 months have been fantastic! probably the best 8 months of my life.. Again, i would trade any one of those days for anything, neither would i trade you..I know with all my heart, neither am i not a better person nor will lead a better life without you.. but i'll respect your decision..
I don't know what to say anymore.. What needs to be said is already said.. i've stated my stand and i've tried to convince you.. but it's alright! (: I pretty much Understand *actually no laa*, its ok! (: Joel said he would always Forgive you de! so you are forgiven .. Baby.. i'll still love you & babygirl, i'll miss you ..
We'll still be great great friends! (:
My promises still stand, i'll be there if you call & i will always be looking out for you! (:
You will still be my babygirl..

Baby your all that I need..

11:25:00 AM

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

This might just be the end...

Two people will never fit perfectly and it will only look close to perfect when you can overcome the differences and filled it up

Why must it end this way..

Baby your all that I need..

10:49:00 PM

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Today I followed her to DSA.. Well... She doesnt think it went really well. sobsss.. Well, but i'm really proud of her! really really am.. Did you know, The whole trip from her house to AJC, she kept telling me she wanted to quit, wanted to just give up.. I know it wasn't my words that made her go in, but it was her will power and her bravery that pushed her to enter the room. It took alot of guts and courage for her to do it & i am really really proud of her! After the whole thing, we went to watch "Ghost Of Girlfriends Past" not bad not bad, but it made alot alot of sense. (: He said "love is a risk" i cant remember his exact words but i know he meant something really practical in my situation right now. Something that i hope she'll understand as well ..

Maybe its my wishful thinking, maybe i'm childish. But i'm willing to try & i'm willing to go all out for you. I'm willing and i want it.. I've said it over & over again, One step at a time.. There's bound to be major problems, but we'll let it come to us & fight against it together instead of going to it and losing the battle without even picking up our weapons. We have this small path, i'm taking it, take it with me ..

Recently I learnt this:
1. To show love by sticking with another through tough times
2. To show love by adjusting to others
3. To show love by reaching beyong your comfort zone (self sacrifice)
4. To show love by offering encouraging words-word of affirmation and support
5. To show love by putting their needs above your needs

Stay Close, Don't Go

I'm staring at the glass infront of me
Is it half empty
Have I ruined all you've given me
I know I've been selfish
I know I've been foolish
But look through thatand you will see
That I'll do better
I know, baby
I can do better

If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me
I will make it on my own
Don't leave me tonight
This heart of stonewill sing 'til it dies
If you leave me tonight

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping
I listen to your breathing
Amazed how I somehow managed to
sweep you off of your feet girl
Your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted what you do
But I'll do better
I know, baby I can do better

If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me I will make it on my own
Don't leave me tonight
This heart of stone will sing 'til it dies
If you leave me tonight

Don't you know
My heart is pumping, oh
It's putting out the fight
and I've got this feelin'
That everything's alright
Don't you see
I'm not the only one for you
But you're the only one for me

If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone
(Stay) If you leave me tonight
(Close) I'll wake up alone
(Don't) Don't tell me
(Go) I will make it on my own
(Stay)
Don't leave me tonight
(Close)This heart of stone
(Don't) will sing 'til it dies
(Go) If you leave me tonight

Don't leave me tonight

To my pops & To all fathers out there, Happy Father's Day
I'll end with this video, "My Redeemer Lives", a Great & very touching video. ENJOY:

Dont cry People..

Baby your all that I need..

5:30:00 PM

Monday, June 22, 2009

Had great great fun on this very day, 18/07/09!

Went to east coast with baby!!! at first we were quite bored..then we took this long walk to the bicycle kiosk. Rented 2 roller blades! Peckyong didnt know how to roller blade, so i had to teach her! Rented for 2 hours, and for that 2 hours, it was mostly screaming!!! heehee! but it was fun and very memorable! In the end, she learnt how to roller blade at a moderate speed! good teacher hor... haha.. good student la..

Well, tomorrow is Baby's DSA(direct school admission). Good luck babygirl.. Heard her play and i know she'll do fine! (:

Shall follow her to AJC tomorrow & i'll give her all the support i can.

Ok, next time i'll be back with a whole load of pictures!!! *hope i get some pics of unglamness of others* AS USUAL.. (:

Baby your all that I need..

6:44:00 PM

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Made cookies tgt..

Zijian and Yihui

We painted each others face! "CHOCO MASK"

Breakfast at mac

Sunrise

Stuff toy!

FUN FUN FUN..

These few days have just been super fun. You cannot start to comprehend how great it was.. Was with my girl every single day..Totally great.. This feeling,when i'm with you makes me feel so good. I won't trade anything for it.. This feelings like nothing you've imagined. Really Really had loads & loads of fun..

When I slept, you were by my side. When i woke, you were the first person i saw. Oh how i wish..Oh how i wish every moment of my life is spent with you. Oh how i wish, everything i did was for you. Oh how i wish it would last an eternity. Being with my friends, holding my babygirl, I feel so lucky.. How much longer? no one knows, so i'll treasure every moment with you. All of you mean so much to me..My friends for their care and concern, my babygirl for her generous love & affection..

I hate the feeling of loneliness..so dont go ok? Forever 'n Ever we'll stay..... thats my wish .....

Baby your all that I need..

7:26:00 PM

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

MUMMY N DADDY ARE OUT OR TOWN...(:

Well..They went Thailand with Auntie Elsa n Uncle Edward!
From wed-sun!
Well, got so many things to do..
I hope I can accomplish all..(:

PY AND FRIENDS!!! (: i want to do soooo much...! This is an opportunity i've been waiting for.. !
FINALLY... (:

Baby your all that I need..

7:54:00 PM

Saturday, June 6, 2009

1st June 2009

Truely a day to remember..

Had O level chinese...

mayb i flunked it, mayb i didnt..dont care la..(:

Straight after paper, rushed to cwp to find baby!!!

sorry for making you wait soooo long!

bought tickets for MONSTER VS ALIEN...3D! at cineleisure!

took train there, and walked to TAKA. We went to the place we 1st took a picture tgt...and the memories all came back!!!
It was great then, it's still great now..Went into the cinema on time! They gave us this funky glasses, its really glasses leh! not those paper one that you can throw away..It was REAL!

Well, as usual the movie was great.. the characters were like popping out right in front of our faces, totally cool! (:

Oh after the movie, i did a really cool thing.. I bought whisper from 7-11 .. haha..

so funny la!!! the sales girl gave me looks and joked around with me!!! wat "i think you need a plastic bag..do you want 2?" ASS la.. haha..but tt was fun!

Went to Wisma Ultra and baby tried on prom dresses..she looked real gd! (:

Trained home, and went to tt hill.. Chilled there awhile then sent her home..

One great day... (:

Really wish everyday was like tt..
I wish everyday I could be by your side...

Really do..

Baby your all that I need..

5:26:00 PM

Stop moving leh?

Ever tried Cray fish laksa?!?

SAKURA's Fantastic cakes

ok..this car is full of barbie dolls!

awesome pictures..(:

Sorry to loke low n zj, tt i cant pei them!!!

JOEL WANTS TO STUDY! (:

finish all his hw..

then party on friday alright?!?

heehee..

will tel you more bout it soon!

Baby your all that I need..

5:19:00 PM

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!
I TOTALLY SCREWED CHINESE UP! ):

Upon 30, i got 17.. ):
hw to get A like this?
Hw to even get a B!
F*** this la.. ):

i really studied you know! ):
messed up!

ITS Just MESSED UP!!!!!!!!!!!

Baby your all that I need..

2:37:00 PM

Welcome to http://mycrymyonedesire.blogspot.com

JOEL ONG :D
Turning 16 on July 19
Riverside - 4/6
Badminton
Fan of the champions Manchester United!
Love Sports
Jamaicaisback@hotmail.com

MY DESIRES

Chocolate!
Lots Of Love!!!
$$$
ipod casing
food!!!
sleep...
2nd obs!!!
chill more with frens
More happiness
L1R5 <9
I want you back..

LET'S BITCH

MY ONE & ONLYS'

Guitar Praise
TOHG Worship team
3/5
3/6
Aida
Aizal
Brenna
Charis
Cherie
Daniel
Debbie
Erin
Fatin
Gekteng
Hawa
Hui ming
JiaEn
JiaLi
Jie Lin
JingEr
Jody
Joel Lim
Joshua
June
Junkiat
Kames
Kai yuan
Liting
Marjorie
Ming Fang
Nadhirah
Nicholas(OBS)
Pearly
Peckyong
Peiting
Peiying
Peixuan
Shenghao
Shi Mei
Siying
SookHui
Thahira
Tiffany
Vinus
Waiean
Wei loke
Wenqi
Wenzi
Wingkit
XiaoXiong
XinYing
Yanling
Yihui
YuenLam
Zi Jian
Zubaidah

BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES

April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
November 2009
December 2009

Play The Funky Music!

Music Playlist at MixPod.com